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Opens eyelids early in the morning

Thinking of that beauteous damsel

Brings an intrinsic smile

Forenoon seems white and bright

Waiting desperately for the rendezvous

Eagerly, steadfastly on the road

She striding towards me with that beam

My heart go mushy as a whipping cream

Clutching each other’s hands

Walking blabbing mindlessly

Unaccompanied by the notions about

What the world perceives

What the world means

Way she untie her hair and laugh

Gazes me with those eyes of seraph

Brings my breath to halt

Call you cookie, dearie, honeybunch

Sunshine, sugar, oh my girl

Still not sufficient to elucidate

Sweetness, cheerfulness, marvel, hanker

With which I bide my life

Recollect the times when we

Link my name with her, or yours with him

Hurt each other, then apologise

Chew and gallop the junk, like there’s no after­time

then faulting each other, making eat the mouthwatering stuff every time

My love, don’t you ever change the way you are

you are echo of my silence, the key to all my locks

Every day is a battle, trying to tear us apart

No matter how hard they push, we won’t let it go

The most beautiful thing I ever attained

Am crazy about , Can’t live without

Promise we'll be together with no doubt.

FuNeRALs

Funerals make us cry, make us realise the importance of the dead in our life, the way he eulogised us, the way he bothered us. But the truth is funerals are not for us to sigh, grieve and makes other cry but they are for the persons associated with the dead to give them a hope of living their hopeful life again. Life is full of experiences, expectations and people but unfortunately, everything is transient, everything is mortal. One never liked his relatives but when it comes to funerals, ironically they'll be the ones whom you will love the most. Deaths bring a paradigm shift in the life, they break the comfort zone and makes us witness the dependencies in our life. It fills resentment in the heart of the things left unsaid. Where is the wealthiest place in the world? It's not the US, it's Not Dubai. It's the graveyard because in the graveyard you will find inventions never invented, businesses never erected, songs never sung, books never written, ideas never nurtured and people never realised because they were scared to take a risk.  People say " The person is only a memory now, just a memory so one needs to move on" . Memory?? Memory makes a man what he is today. Ask from a person who is suffering from Amnesia! And the absence of that memory itches you every time when you encounter anything associated with the dead.  I've heard in a movie and I found it really good that " Funerals are not for the dead, they are for the living.".

ThE IMmeAsuRaBLE

Missing the ecstasy, striving for just one glance maybe the world is so mortal and so are the feelings  that one hold. She held the art of eulogizing me, gave me the glee and just seperated the bogus guffawing from that instrinsic felicity.But the enamour touch surely dies one day. Want to be drowsy, to be sleepy lie comatose for the rest of my existance, atleast the dilusions and apparitions can make me endear you. Want to stuck in the daydream, crumbling and collapsing within myself cause the worst things come so unchallanged and facile. Hold me in your arms, feel my heartbeat which becomes so loud when you are around, lie down with me under the white light of the sky. I may grow old, but my soul will be evergreen for you crying for you per heartbeat. Why is that ,goodness comes so slow and seized so abrubtly? Hate gazing my own reflection beacuse it prompts me that I am so abandoned and unloved without you. Oh, youre so beautiful that I can stare you for the rest of my mortal life , you are my art, you are my passion, you are my inexorable everything.I feel you every instant analogous to the wind, I cant see it but I feel it, sense consecutively the wonder, beauty, ebullience and love at once. Wish I would have revealed you about the tenderness you bring to my soul before you left me like a lamented and deceased swain. The one who illuminated me to bide my life with marvel,hope and hanker has herself seemed out to be so transient in front of the world's perishable nature.    

                                                                                                                   

                                                                                                                                                                                         

CRazy LoVE

Hey my name is reckon.I turned 18 a year before...hah..so basically am 19.I was as usual a college brat.That day when i tread into the classrom i felt a sudden swift in my body or my chest(am not sure).The lecture started.As the disquisition about the salts started it became impossible for me to centralize my mind to what the teacher was edifying.Something stopped me from focusing, something like an inexorable eye candy.When the teacher took our attendence i came to know that the girl's name is Alison. I severely wanted to find one way or the other to interact with her. I was neither a geek and nor a disaster at mien, so i always had a chance. I never had a girlfriend because according to my knowlege, its such a pain in the ass to tolerate her tantrums. But this time it felt stupendous. It was a thing that would touch you for one time and would remain in your heart for a lifetime.

Next day the best thing happened, we became project partners. I am a chuklesome guy always admired by the girls with my amazing humor. Since its my story i have full right to brag myself :P. But this time i was a bit skittish because.....I don't know!. That day our first interaction took place and analogous to my extreme desire for music, she was also one of an English pop music lover. I loved the way she looked at me and guffawed.That day i felt extremely delightful of being comical and amusing because it was the thing placing me adjacent to her. Yes, I think I found something really great. Everything changed in a sanguine way. We started accompanying each other the whole time. The college time turned out to be the most cheerful time of my day. Weekends turned out be gloomy and downhearted. But thats where technology play its role. We talked like 45-60 min on phone in weekends. It turned out that we became an indispensable part of each others life. I always dream't like " She is a snazzy, glamorous girl  and am a debonair guy.WOW!! What a elegant couple we would make." But there was always something peculiar about the thought.So, the college fest comes into the scene.All we both could yell was "NIGHT OUT". College fest was a 2-3 day festival which took place almost the whole and at night the college buses would depart.So the plan was to take the wrong bus and to end in a unfamiliar place. So obviously the plan was executed in the best way it could be. We came out and landed and strided towards those big letters that read "Phoenix"."Late night show" in chorus.So the movie in cinemas named "One night stand". We would have chosen another movie but you know "movie named with night is insinuated to be seen at nights". In the middle of the movie we were asleep in the movie theater resting on each others shoulders and holding hands as it was quite frosty inside the hall.We were so drowsy and lethargic that we were like two teenagers lying comatose on their seats. When the movie ended the roustabout brought us into conscious and told us " to get the bloody hell out of the foyer". I don't know what made him so annoyed.Well, who cares!! So now, here we were,  surrounded with tranquil tree-lined avenue at 3 am in the morning. Then as we were walking, we talked about epiphanies and revelations that we perceived in our lives. I certainly know that those talks made our relationship immeasurable rather fathomless.

Finally we reached the bus station and ended in our homes and had slept like the big Lazy fish of Bangkok. So, the fest and the memories with it folded in the next instant.She had a small brother 7 years old  named Jarid and she had a lot of care and affection towards him. Many a times she used to show the amusing images of her and Jarid and used to tell me that how she loved him the most in the family. As usual, the conventional days started and suddenly a troupe of unexpected events took place. In the first week itself after the fest, she got like 15 boys asking her if she  wanted to be their girl. But propitiously or lamentably, she rejected all of them. It was quite arduous for me to figure out what made these unanticipated series of  transformations took place.However, she told me about every guy and the statements associated with them and we used to fall about laughing on cheesy and subtle which she usually described as "Fictitious".I also laughed heartily with her but it also created a perturbation in my mind of divulging my adoration to her. Hah! My mind was at total unrest with the big dilemma orbiting all around whether to tell her or not?.Apart from all, my nights became sleepless because of that thought that struck me every time i closed my eyes. So, the next day i unambiguously and certainly decided to spew out everything I had in my mind and senses.So, the next morning i bought the best chocolate they had in the canteen.I went to her and called her name aloud "Alison!!". She came to me gave me a high 5 and said "sup?? reckon". I sat on my knees holding the chocolate and said "You created a new me. There is no such earthly being and could never be. A doctor cannot cure, a poet cannot comfort and thinking on and on. Thick night enclosed me like a wall , what is it i still dont understand and than my voice said aloud. Alison, you are my muse , you are the most cheerful thing i've ever attained and all i can say now is I LOVE YOU, I ADORE YOU, AM EMPTY WITHOUT YOU. Will you be mine dearie?". I closed my eye expecting for a reply and guess what she said something I can't believe. She said "NO!".When I opened my eyes i saw a tear falling from one of her eye and when i stood up she whispered in my ear " A girl's heart is an ocean of secrets" and she ran away. It felt like thousand batters of cretinous pounced me at once. All i could say myself in consolation is" Life is decided by the choices one makes and you dont get to choose if those choices will be the way you anticipated". She didn't came to college after that.But there wasn't a single day i didn't missed her or thought about her.

Hey, am Alison. You know me !! Right??.Do u wanna hear something appalling? At first Reckon was my best buddy but I don't know as the time passed by he became a requisite part of my life and the time he said he loved me I just wanted to tell him that I  want him to know and with everything I wont let him go and I wish I could bleed out my heart to show that I also love him like anything.The only reason I said NO even though every nerve, every bone of my body wanted to shout aloud YES because i was suffering from Marfan syndrome.

 There was a problem in my connective tissues and would end me with unexplained heart related death. I would live maybe for 6 months or 7 or 8 but not more than a year.I wanted to live,  but my fate had different plans. So I left the college, but  there wasn't a single day i didn't miss him or thought about him. One fine day, i visited my doctor and something miraculous happened. He said that an elixir has been discovered to treat the people suffering from this epidemic, but the chances for the patient to stay living are just 30%.Moreover, the cure to ailment exists not in our country but USA.It was a ray of light in my dark and blind living  to live my life again with Reckon.So I went to San Francisco for 3 months and with all my fortunate and blessed love I stood positive in operation and returned back to my country immediately and could not hold my horses to hug reckon so tightly and tell him that he is the happiness and fulfillment of my heart am not gonna leave him forever.
When I came back I discovered that Jarid met with an accident and was  lying injured in the hospital. I indubitably headed towards the City Hospital. I felt so grateful and relieved that he's gonna be fine very soon. So what can one expect, I instinctively made a call to daniel (the mutual friend of me and reckon) as I dont want to dial directly to Reckon. Magging with him I learnt that Reckon left to meet me in my city a week earlier but I could not find any trace of him. I was perturbed. Promptly I heard the word Reckon in the conversation of my parents. It set a sudden grin on my face and then I asked my parents "Who Reckon?". My mother said "An incarnation of God.Dear ,he sacrificed his life for Jarid. He saved him from the car accident but eventually lost his life. Wish we could bring him back." My heartbeat rate increased and every voice around me collapsed. I felt like a thunderbolt struck me and all I could feel is pain and ache. I couldn't believe he's no more but the truth was real. When I went to Jarid wiping my tears with a forge fine face and with a haze he told me that " The guy who saved me,  he shouted my name aloud on road.He already knew my name. I don't know how?". I could not forgive myself forever for Reckon's life and could love nobody else except him. He left a sky without stars with a solitary moon crying for its fulfillment

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A year later I opened my E- mail and I found a mail from Reckon. I was so overjoyed to see his mail. When I opened I found this story and in the end it was written "Lets complete this story!!" . N I hope you know where it started with me.

ReVELaTioN

It is the tendency of human nature to get what doesn't actually belongs to him. It is the most appealing contrivance but not worth for. Just have a contemplation rather a deep thought of the people who are always there for you. You give a shit about them...haha....How contradicting it is, the ones who we owe are the one we ignore. We hurt and mutilate them. We kill their adoration, reverence, sentiments. We take them for granted. We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us.

Do you know what? Feel pity...not for the people who cared for you , but yes for "you" yourself. Because you proved out to be gullible in front of life's compelling conspiracy and let me tell you more!! You proved  out be the as the same bloody  common loser. Thats why its the common tendency of human nature as I mentioned.

If you can't see go blind analogous to the dark and black as your future reveals. And the best part

of course, the epiphany will reach you when those caring's will die mentally or heartily getting repeated batters of cretinous.